virgin

I have gotten my heart broken more times than i have seen the war. but then i have never really seen the war so that may be once or twice...i have lived knowing i'm about to walk into pain but somehow not being able to avoid. See the irony is that even in a time when all seems impossible to fix, like a phoenix i rise from the ashes. Some people whose hearts have been trampled over and over again lose heart but for some well...they keep on keeping on. As for me, when my heart breaks its just goes to show i didnt read it right i stand on my feet and i give it my all on the next trial. I have promised myself i'll never be swept off my feet i will always walk with eyes wide open,was i true to myself? What happens when you cannot control what is to happen to you?what if "maktub" "it is written"? I think of the world as my crystal ball, only this crystal ball is a mystery because it is hazy so i cannot tell what lies ahead. What i am sure of is what is happening in the present. One woman, whose soul was torn apart by love once said, "the heart can only love once, because when we love and lose love we lack the ability to make our soul pure again. we lose the purity of our hearts forever. we're unable to make our hearts "VIRGIN" of love and pain alike. While we might agree this is somewhat true. A famous and inspirational writer begs to differ as he says that when we love a different being from whomever we have loved before our hearts become pure and we love anew. It becomes something that we really dont want to compare because it is so new to us. we have seen such but we choose to start afresh live on the today not yesterday or tomorrow. So are our hearts like our bodies are only virgin for a time, after which we can not "revirginate"? Or is it true that when one loves anew, they are stepping in a new territory, a new life a completely new feeling? or is that a notion only a novelist who writes fiction can live by?