your eyes

I saw you last night and your bright brown eyes shone better than i ever seen them before i chose to look the other way i cant afford to fall back it wouldnt be intelligent. i made my way through the crowd but you were the only one i saw, i hid behind another set of eyes but you pierced right through them. I tried to make small talk meaningless conversation. I had forgotten about your close to devilish effect on my speech and my very sanity. you see since the day you left i never cried a tear, i never had to. I made it through the darkest hours with my head held high, i have to thank you though. you lesson taught me i deserve better only not better than you. you made me see the world with experience and hate not love and innocense again i fail to see how you hurt me because when you hit me i cried but i didnt bleed, when you cursed at me i hurt but i didnt react, when you left me alone in a dark house i slept and fantasised about the prince who would come to rescue me. My thoughts became my company when i needed you most. Windy nights found me alone and scared but i'm alive and stand before you today knowing you're proud of me that i didnt break that i didnt talk back and that i still love you. Not because I'll need you forever but because you will always remember me no matter how far apart we are you'll pray for me when my nights seem cold, you'll open the door when i need shelter, you'll kiss where it hurts for that i can never forsake you because through it all i value the lesson learnt and i thank my God for hope, perseverence,patience and love though it all. I wake up in the middle of the night to ensure that you dont run away your presence is sacred, i make food no matter how tired I am because you going hungry though the night is not an option.

This is all because you're my mother, my father, my sister, my brother, my uncle, my friend, my child,my lover you're my everything i forgive you because had not not been for you i wouldnt be me.