my heart my mistake

the things that scare us are the things that are most likely to make us happy, when u leap you feel like it is worth it because u might just find a better life on the other side. it is like giving in to the unknown just so you find yourself happier or even more fulfilled, its almost like a mind game (i dare you to...) where one is blind-folded and trusting the guide to give the right and accurate directions. however we can never really know truly what is good for us until we have experienced it. sometimes it is easy to turn away from things because one can see the potential doom that faces them as consequence of these decisions. what about the less that gory ones?how do we protect ourselves from those?

fact is we all have to credit ourselves with mistakes before we can lead a mature untroubled life, we have to know not get burnt again because the first time around sucked, that no more playing with hammers and nails because the pain is nasty. time and again people ask when the time will be that the risk is worth it, truth is, even though some risks are more visible than others and advice can easily be dished out. sometimes it is better for us to make our decisions and suffer, if we have to, our decisions' consequences. it gives us a chance to retrace our steps know where we went wrong and know better when the time comes. and the time does come, when u have to prove to yourself that the other mistake was not in vain, to show that you have grown from that experience to show that you have matured from the heartbreak you suffered.

its been my experience that the one mistake we make is lust after the approval of people we idolise, when do we own our decisions?when do we get to protect our own heart when do we get to make our own mistakes? not for the second time or the third but for the first time? when do we make our very own master-piece of a mistake, one we get to look back on and say "had i not done that, where would i be?"