last resort

Do we give up on ourselves? Is that our reason for quitting, accepting defeat and going against our wishes whatever they might be? I believe in losing the things that do not help you grow, the things that do not make you happy and most importantly people that have no positive impact in your life. The trick with this simple solution is that you never really know the bad branches in your tree. It is therefore very important to know exactly what you are removing from your life. Are you removing friends who talk about other friends (and probably you) behind their backs? Are you removing a boyfriend that is not supportive of you and your aspirations? Are you removing and parent that never sees the wonderful achievements you get to but rather the silly mistakes that creep up on you? Are you very simply removing a job that does not fulfill or challenge you? Because sometimes its painful to admt even to yourself that your choice of friends has not been good, that however much you adore him that boyfriend is nothing but a pest that will never allow you to grow. Yes if sucks and yes it is painful, but would you not rather do it now rather than years down the line when the damage is now extensive?
The last resot sometimes is for people who have been through much too much heartache and pain as for the rest of us, we inch to get to the last resort we feel as though people will feel betrayed and as though they were sneaked up to, we fail to understand that to have a wonderful relationship  is to understand that people loving as they are smiley as they are they have flaws, to see those, understand them and stratergise around them. Lets allow ourselves to love the people that surround us by understanding them... otherwise do what i do when in doubt... cut communication its the last resort but effective as hell :D

Root and route

So now that i've uprooted my whole life its only natural that since i haven't really understood what my next move is. i think of a thousand things all at once but truly my route has not been established as yet. i must say, there are things in life that i embrace, like family, peace of mind and perhaps more importantly the love of family. i always think there are things in life one must be careful not to mistake a root for a route, lust for love, enjoyment and happiness. these are so closely related... one to the other respectively but obviously... close inspection shows they are anything but the same.
So what could i say about my roots? do i have any roots? my roots are the very basics of my life, the reason i speak the way i speak, i smile when i do, i talk the way i do. these are the reasons i relate with certain people and not really with other people. the roots i speak of are the humble beginnings of my family, the mannerisms of the people who raised me and with whom i was raised. the way i was called off the street, taught to say please and thank most importantly taught never to ask for or expect food from anywhere but home. these are the cores of my family... and frankly there could not be a me thats me had i not taken heed of my roots.
But my route is the way i have chosen to live my life with new values to add on or merge the old ones. its the way i do the things i was never taught, improvising and continuing to find a balance between the things i enjoy and the things i know i would not be embarassed to discuss with my family... my route is how i can have a glass of wine without taking the whole bottle under my arm, or flirt without being indecent and yell without being vulgar. My route and my roots are linked how are yours?