I'm still numb with shock, it is a fact angels need to be with us as long as we live. We cant ever imagine living without them. Sometimes we go through the worst of nightmares and we continue to wonder even when the shivers are all gone that perhaps somewhere in the midst of our tragedies there was something we needed to have noticed. Have you noticed though, that thats when we begin to torture ourselves. trying to find answers to questions we ask the ceilings of our houses and the shower heads that tower over our heads in the morning. Today in front of this screen i'm yelling at the demons that circle me because i can't afford to keep numb quite speechless while my friends agonise over this. I'm stunned at the lack of wording that is certainly running my life now. I drop my gaze my heart sinks and a rush of goosebumps pimple my hairy skin thinking imagining of what it must feel like to lose an angel.
When angels go it feels like there is no hope to cling to. There is an emptiness they leave in our hearts, our lives and our very being. It feels empty and with little meaning right now to say that an angel goes to a better place when they part with you. But we continue to say it because of the lack of wording that befalls us when we least expect. He this beautiful angel that has left us will always be a part of our lives. We remember his smile because it captivated our hearts, his essence energy and pure amazing heart stays with us. it will always be what we remember.
However truth be told speechless as i might be i wish from the bottom of my heart that all broken hearts be mended by the new angels that will come to accompany us. give them a chance to bloom as angels in their own right and give them the possible support. When the next angel enters our lives, lets all smile and open up our hearts to them. may your soul rest in peace Pots!
