heart

I was once described as an intense person. And it was actually (believe it or not) a compliment. I remember thinking so my school girl practice of loving hard allso like I've never been hurt was actually a good practice. however I was later persecuted by the same person that had so absolutely dished out this incredible compliment. To my surprise though, my heart was not dettered. I remember getting into another relationship a few months where couldn't stop myself crying, smiling and loving yet again with the same passion that was scolded before. so it occured to me that if I don't see myself as good enough and as a whole normal person, no one will brand me such.
Since life is life and some things just won't change or work out this relationship lost too, to the distance and time that neither one of us had control over. and yet today as sit hre my heart contentbecause I know that not only am I a  perfectly normal human being but lso that I'm capable of loving and being loved. I carry a hope and passuon in me that I can't regulate make bigger or smaller as I  please. Can someone ask them to hold us tight, to help our harts believe again? to give us a new elevated hope in love? Can a kind someone ask hem to show us how to breath without the absolute scare that we might bebreathing in bad luck? Can someone let us all know t is okay to fall in love? To know that love does not have to hurt? Is someone out there going to let love be love? to encourage young men nd women to have heart, to allow the heart to speak? Is someone out there listening to the heart profess love profess commitment? what about u and me? do we know our heart? do we listen to our hearts cry out?

found

So you found love, what's next! it's not great secret that all of us what no know the secret of how love is kept once found. it's also a step that we all forget until the time comes when  it is a necessity to know what's next. it's a matter of commitment, friendship, trust, passion and a lasting reliance. how does one know though, how to keep it alive when the passion has been ignited and the need for the other seems to burn too bright that there is no end in sight? can one plan for how to keep the love/relationship alive once it has been established? do we even consider (truly) the future when we get into relationship? all this considered how would one go about it? does my planning for te future with him simply mean I'm trying to piece together unnaturally something that should simply be? or have I truly learnt what a true union means?
is it not hard to wonder while in his arms what ten years would be like with him? wouldn't it be better if we could simply live in the moment? today I have no great wisdom to patch this up, instead, I will just share what think should be the case when one has found. I believe that a woman is at liberty to choose where she goes, that it is her that decides how a man will treat her, she has to be clear from the very beginning of what she wants. if it is not fulfilled then, when the man still claims great passion, it will never be done. a woman decides the course of the relationship from the way she presents herself to the relationship. a woman who enjoys outdoors and  an active lifestyle needs to be clear from the on set what she is about so that the mate who picks her knows what he is getting into. just as a woman who enjoys walks and a generally quiet life has to be clear from the onset.
Somehow though, when we found the one who makes our lives feel filfilled we somehow turn into a version of the man with whom we find ourselves, we lose our being into them and lose identity as a result. all will say is, now you found him, attracted with your natural being of unaffected laugh and quick feminine walk . why are you hiding your true self in his true self? take charge when you found him, not aggresion just be true to yourself, when you found him.

bliss

What might I say to my children about love? Don't fall in love with a dreamer? Love is exciting and sacred? Love is kind and sweet? Perhaps might simply say, "When at first you don't succeed, try try try again."  What about when she is infactuated? What might say to my little girl about the affections that she understands as love? Might scold her and keep her chained within 3metres from the house? or might say, "Let your heart and your mind be in sync"? I wonder about how might help her through her heartbreak, whether I'll be stern like my own grown folk or whether I'll make the girl some lemon tea and rub her back.
My experience is that no matter how proactive a girl is, there is nver reason for her to hunt love down. it occured to me that sometimes in our pursuit for love and or famously happiness we are hostile and "take no prisoners" forgetting that in love hostility is like a bug in gardens. Someone told me once that love cannot be captured and cannot be locked down and eventhough we work at relationships love is not manufactured and therefore cannot be purchased...
What's my experience of bliss though? I belive this is the kind of feeling where you know how a walk in the puff of cloud might feel, how kissing raindrops might be and perhaps most importantly when nothing else matters but the smile that reflects your own in the person sitting opposite you or beside you.
What about you and me? Do we know bliss the peaceful happiness that people wear like a thin sheet of glass? Or are we still arrogant enough to compare this rare feeling with relationships in general?

vows

I have always been fascinated by promises men and women make to each other on their wedding. the way they smile then cry then kiss each other. the declaration that there will be no other that nothing will ever be more important that the two of them and their  family. I might even mention that it, on a lot of occasions brought a tear to my eye. wonder though if I will feel that way when my turn comes. It occurs to me that some things are better looking in from the outside. that said want them to be mine and his, to be just for us. for example, I want him to tell me why he wants to marry me, how he will be loyal to us, our union our family.
So like a young woman, once a girl I want promises made to be kept. Until a few weeks ago I knew that promises were meant to be broken but I allow myself to believe it. In my mind there was a simple question, Why then should a promise be made if there is no intention to keep it? Again I made a promise to myself to make promises I can keep and to only allow promises to be made if I felt they are real. It occured to me that almost every promise been made to me has been broken. Chatting with a close friend I asked that  he vow to me, as a potential life partner it amazed me the things he said, but was even more amazing was the way his eyes danced and his palms shook. And I wondered just then, how?
I've made just one promise, I will love with all my heart, knowing there is always a possibility of being let down, it deter me I will love hard. this promise I've kept! what vow have you made will you keep it?