reality (beyond me)

It is not a far cry to say there is a reality within which our individual realities lie. It's a mother to all of ours. It's that moment when after you have planned a smooth get-away you find that there is unrest in the area you had chosen as ideal. It sometimes is the challenge you face when you have managed to go through everything else and come out with scars and still have reality the bitter sweet cake to sink your teeth into. It's basically now what? Just because you have had your heart broken and you managed to come out a better person does not mean reality will be any kinder to you than anyone else in the world. Having said that, I also know for certain that sometimes when reality hits it's fine because we needed to know that it was happening everything that we thought was too far and too wild is happning because it is our reality. I'm humbled by my own realisation that truly there is a more powerful force controlling every event as it occurs. That while plan and plot, someOne else is making things happen right then.That while pray that someone might miss me enough to rush to me today rather than next week this One just decides will manage to see my loved four consecutive weekends. Get used to it and be (once again) humbled by the reality that have no control over anything but how use the time that I am given as it is allocated.

Should I get a chance like this again, more chances to show them I love them my loved ones will be given every affection in real-time because as reality would have it, hind-sight love and affection is only thoughts iin my head not a true reflection of who someone is to me and how I feel about them and their presence in my life. So while have no chance to shape my reality (or wish it) I know it is not strange or impossible to live in the present moment and give yourself and your loved ones a chance to experience love and affection right then. Kiss him, tell him how you feel, hold her, tell her how delightful her laugh is to your ears and to your heart. Remember this reality is only valid for now, there will not be another quite like it.