How can i let you go? Whenever i wake up in the morning i'm anxious to see what you thought of this morning when u left for work, the little message u tucked under my pillow on my trusted messenger. I wonder if i was the first thought on your mind. I wonder if you watched out of me to see if i was online, if u kept your thoughts throughout the night to avoid being uncool. I prayed that once u decided you stuck to your guns. That if you left you would say "goodbye" and if you stayed you'd say "u'r my home" but that either way, i told myself, that i would never cry over you. I made peace with the reality that life won't give me handouts but you in my life however inexplicable is a close enough comparison. I would not know how to draw up a character like you, how to make the vegetation around you greener and the water clearer. In my lifelike stories i could never explain the elusive way you move in and out of my life, the sweet way you find me and lose me again. the incredible way i have no idea how to captivate you but somehow u always seem enchanted.
But I'm afraid time has come to take a stand, to colour in the corners I've neglected. I know what love has always been to me, yours has redefined all that for me. So sitting here dreaming and swallowing what little pride I've accumulated. I let you go, and hope u find me that u make me a promise that u dream with me that you let me become a part of your sunny sky, colourful world. I won't ask though not because I don't want you to, but because you need this space to make these decisions...but yet somewhere in the hooks and crooks of my life i beg u to choose for the suspense is killing me. Its always a challenge to wait for you.
