gut feeling

I am of the sentiment that if a suggestion is made about your life and it does not feel right, then you can discard it. It is common to seek advice when in doubt especially when our own plan has left you bruised with nowhere to go. it is however not a good idea to go about with just any suggestion because you currently feel like a failure. the best of us switch on the light to asses the situation while the rest of us pull our blankets over our heads and disregard any light from outside. Hoping in this darkness that light will come from within. Of course we have a light within, but it is not like the sun it does not burn without fuel. 

Sometimes we get angry at the things and people we cannot necessarily yell at. We sit by our beds and curse until tears burning in our eyes come spilling. In the depths of our hearts though, there is that one flicker of a feeling that always reminds us where ground zero is. Sometimes because of anger, frustration good old raw pain, we refuse to listen to this feeling because we wonder why this is any different from the betrayal that has left us feeling done in.

Its  that boy that suddenly pops up in your life that has never been any good. It is that habit that you quit but is oh so desireable again right at this moment. It is that forbidden fruit that seems at its ripest just when you feel that hankering. That nagging feeling that reminds you of your last trip to the emergency room, that annoying persistent voice that just won't shut up about the pain and humiliation that boy brought you the last time he paid you the same visit, that song that just won't be quiet in your head? Do you hear it? Do you remember it? Well that's you guy feeling looking out for you. Listen to the ol' gal she has wisdom!