May 5, 2012

vows

I have always been fascinated by promises men and women make to each other on their wedding. the way they smile then cry then kiss each other. the declaration that there will be no other that nothing will ever be more important that the two of them and their  family. I might even mention that it, on a lot of occasions brought a tear to my eye. wonder though if I will feel that way when my turn comes. It occurs to me that some things are better looking in from the outside. that said want them to be mine and his, to be just for us. for example, I want him to tell me why he wants to marry me, how he will be loyal to us, our union our family.
So like a young woman, once a girl I want promises made to be kept. Until a few weeks ago I knew that promises were meant to be broken but I allow myself to believe it. In my mind there was a simple question, Why then should a promise be made if there is no intention to keep it? Again I made a promise to myself to make promises I can keep and to only allow promises to be made if I felt they are real. It occured to me that almost every promise been made to me has been broken. Chatting with a close friend I asked that  he vow to me, as a potential life partner it amazed me the things he said, but was even more amazing was the way his eyes danced and his palms shook. And I wondered just then, how?
I've made just one promise, I will love with all my heart, knowing there is always a possibility of being let down, it deter me I will love hard. this promise I've kept! what vow have you made will you keep it?

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